Law of Attraction Journal Vol. 10 | Treading Water
When I set out on this journey I promised myself that I would keep track of the progress at least once every month. Other than checking in to say, “Not much is happening,” not much has been happening. At least, not for the Mutineer project.
Having said that, interesting things can and do occur when you set goals for yourself and move toward them. For some, they seem too difficult and the idea of believing that you can do something that you can’t yet see just seems too far away and so we give up. On the other hand, setting a goal can help drive you forward, stretching your capacities, actions and thoughts beyond what you had considered up to that point. That’s positive. But if you’re not careful, it could potentially have a detrimental effect if you set a goal lofty enough to stretch you, but also aggressive enough to make you feel as if you’re failing if you have not reached it by the time you had initially intended.
Time Flies … and What Have We Done?
Another thing that can happen is becoming acutely aware of how quickly time goes by and how rapidly minutes, hours, and days pile up at what feels like an impossible speed without us feeling as if we’ve done what we thought we should be able to do in that time.
When I first set the intention to go forward with this Mutineer project, I gave myself about a year-and-a-half worth of runway between the announcement and what I perceived to be the conclusion of this particular goal. Since then, a number of things have taken place that I could not have foreseen, the least of which being full-scale assault on reinventing my career and life. I’ve begun to change and adopt a lot of daily habits that may the Mutineer project in so much as they’ll keep me healthy and creative and generating passive streams of income that I foresee will be eventually used to bring Mutineer to life. In other words, when I set out to do Mutineer, I only had a few other things on my plate. Now, I’ve got several plates on the table and they are all more than full. I’m not even sure which plate Mutineer’s on anymore. But am I giving up on the idea? No I’m not.
In fact, the whole feel of this particular idea has morphed and changed a great deal from what I originally intended. Rather than doing a concert and releasing a CD as the end of it (my original intention), I now see Mutineer as an ongoing thing that needs to be reshaped nurtured. I don’t want to finish it. I want it be a part of who I am.
Further, I don’t know that I should be calling these things “Law of Attraction Journals” or anything like that. I’ve been paying too much attention to keywords and not enough about what the true spirit of the project actually is. So there’s a part of me that feels like I need to pull the whole thing back and put a fresh, new set of sails on it. Perhaps that’ll happen down the road. In the meantime, it’s a matter of freeing up the energy to do the next song demo.
On The Move
The biggest thing that I am doing right now is moving into a different place to live. I’m actually going back to where I lived more than a year-and-a-half ago in an effort to free up some time, energy, and cash flow so that I can invest all of those currencies back into building the life, career, and creative projects that really make me feel fulfilled. The combination of getting ready for the move right off the heels of the Christmas whirlwind, servicing my day job while also creating the career path that I truly desire, has all left Mutineer on the outside looking in. Right now, I frankly don’t feel like rocking. I don’t feel like singing, I don’t feel like practicing and I have seriously considered just turning this channel off. Heck, I don’t even really expect anybody is going to be reading this. Why would you even care? But here’s the thing, and what keeps it alive: I care.
I first thought of this project over a decade ago. And I don’t know how many times I have put it off thinking that I would get to it, “once the time is right.” So if I submit to that thought yet again now, I know it will bubble back up and I’ll just have to fire the whole machinery all back up again. So for the time being, I view it as if I’m just treading water. Or, stalled, as I said in the accompanying video blog.
I shudder at the thought that this blog just reads like a list of excuses. If you want to see what I’m really up to, go over to NoScheduleMan.com and you’ll see the body of work over there. All of those things come before the Mutineer project. And yet none of them were going on until after I announced the intention to chase this dream. Funny how that works: start moving forward in pursuit of your passions and other paths begin to show themselves to you.
Keep the Pilot Light On
One day, I’ll look back on this blog entry and laugh. Every morning, I’ve been reading a couple of pages of the book “You2” by Price Pritchett, about creating quantum leaps in the results you’re getting in life. In that book, he notes that “everything looks like a mess in the middle.” He uses example of a surgery, that if you were to walk in the middle of it, you’d find it might look like a murder scene. Blood all over the place. A mess. Or something a little bit less ominous might be being in the kitchen when someone was making a cake or some other complicated dish, and in the middle of it, it would look like a royal mess: flour and dirty dishes and mess everywhere. But that’s not the whole picture. It isn’t finished yet. The subject of the surgery eventually gets sewn up and healed, the kitchen can be cleaned as the cake bakes.
As for me, I’m not even at the middle. Not even close to it! So why even try to keep the pilot light lit until inspiration returns?
Because I know that I will regret it if I don’t.